Sweet dreams that won't come true.

A few nights ago I was on the phone with Erica and John till sometime past one. I'm not gonna say what he was texting me the entire time, but basically he's "walked in my shoes" and he knows how I feel now. He's been depressed lately, and 99% of me hates the fact he's hurting but theres always the 1% who's saying that atleast now he can understand the pain that i've been experiencimg.

Enough about his depression, and about "what I want the most, and what i'll never have." He's been going through not only emotional stuff due to Erica, but also his family has been stressing him out. He really needs to understand his mother more. He feels like she's suffocating him, but I love Ms.Sanderson. John just needs to pray and do what God wants him to do.

Oh, so during school today I called John. Yes, during class. My teacher never found out, and it was amazing. But, he sang Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional randomly to me. I love listening to him sing.


Vindicated ~ Dashboard Confessional
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment fall forever
Defense is paper thinJust one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

[Chorus]
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption