Sometimes you just need to pray.

Today was a really hard day for me and my best friend. Satan loves attacking the family unite I tell you. Today was really hard for both Samantha and I. Her family loves making her feel like she's nothing, and like she's not wanted, and today my dad and I got into a fight about money. Money really is the root of all evil. I feel that as christians we should always realize that we have God, no matter how bad the economy is, we still have God. Unlike the non-believers we have a reason to be happy no matter what happens. Well, apparantly by telling my dad to have faith that God would provide I was being "super spiritual" and judging his level of faith. I swear I said the right thing, but it only caused him to yell and me to cry and go into my room and listen to "Song of the Angels" and read my bible. I understand that my dad's stressed about money right now, and it's something he's always stressed about, but it shouldn't cause him to yell at people. It's only money, atleast we have God and each other right?

My dads my best friend, and I love him with all my heart. That's why it hurt so bad when he told me that I was judging him, because I wasn't. I know my dads a strong believer, and he's done an amazing job in raising me. I just despise his temper. He deals with stress by yelling at people. My mom however deals with stress by making everyone feel like they are inferior. Which, is a bad combination between the two of them, because she says things to hurt him, which causes him to get angry, and it's a never ending cycle sometimes.

I blame it on her work. My family was filled with peace when my mother wasn't working but ever since she started going back to work, the peace has once again been destroyed, and i'm beginning to feel the effects of it again. I'm beginning to want to always go into my room to avoid saying something to set one of them off. I mean, i'm making it out to seem pretty bad, and it's not i'm really blessed, just lately it's been horrible. I love my family, I just need to pray for them