I wish sometimes that he would just tell me how he felt. Really. He can't keep lying to me as well as himself. I know theres something, because you do not look at me the way he does without feeling something. You can lie, but your eyes always tell the truth. I'm not even hurting over him anymore, i've gotten to the point where I've realized i'm lucky he's one of my best friends and that i'd rather have that then nothing at all. He'd just make it so much easier if he didn't look at me with those eyes. Yet, I always look at him with my eyes. Well, NO DUH! I care so very deeply about him, and that's why I don't understand if he doesn't feel the same way why does he looks at me the way he does. He's always looking at me straight in the eyes, and he always has the biggest smile on his face when he talks. I see him when he talks to me. He glows, and it bothers me....
Eh, I could just be holding on to false hope here. Who knows. All I can do is pray right? It's been almost 2 years now that i've cared this much about him, and for 2 years now he's been looking at me this way. I don't know if this means something, but I think it does.
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