Hiding under the sheets, believing nobody knows.

I hate feeling this way. I don't hate people, and everyone knows I don't hate Zach. He just angers me soo much. He called me not nice words today, and Brandon brought him to my work and he gave me a "The 7 Days of Kwanza" book for a "Christmas" present. It wasn't funny. How could anyone think I would laugh at that? I was hurt, and angered. Brandon didn't even do anything to stop him, or to make it seem that he cared. We aren't on happy grounds right now and I can't stand it. Brandon told me he thought I'd think the gift was humerous, and I told him how obviously he didn't know me that well. He got mad, and he told me happy new years and now he's not talking to me. Why is he mad at me? Shouldn't I be the one mad at him? I'm his best friend, he should protect me from people being cruel, but he's not he's helping. It's stupid. I think sometimes he wishes I were like Gabby and Kelly, and I never will be. I'm Bekah, and I hate when people want me to change into something I will never be, and something I'm glad that I'm not. My heart hurts, because I miss my best friend, but he currently wants nothing to do with me. =/

John wants to run him and Zach over with a car. My dad wants to murder Zach *not literally...but..lol*. I guess I'm lucky I have people there for me. John Erica and Hoffman made me feel quite a bit better about everything. All 3 of them told me I had them no matter what, and it felt good. I just want my Brandon back. He's changed the past 2 days, and I don't like it one bit...