Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you

I broke again tonight. It's been awhile since I've just cried, but for once it wasn't about not having John, but rather it was about feeling I was losing him as a best friend. Lately, to both me and Erica he's been acting incredibly different, and hasn't been talking much. He also treats me like I am nothing in his life anymore. He's one of my best friends, and best friend pain is one of the worse pains in the world. I don't even know what to write right now, because so many emotions are swelling up inside. I decided for the first time ever I wouldn't try to fix everything on my own, and that I'd see how long it took him to realize that something was wrong. Well, it didn't take him that long because he called me and left me a message. Of course, I didn't pick up but I really want to see if he will try to fix things like I always do. I feel so forgotten, and I feel young again. Erica made a point, she said she feels like he's growing up and he's realizing he doesn't need us anymore...and that is really scary, and really hurts to think about.

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